why DOES it HURT that MUCH+MORE

always trying to COMPREHEND everything
BUT
it still HURTS
I remember the line saying
"TRUTH hurts but will set ourselves FREE"
Do I have to fool myself in all of THESE stuff
I'm kind a tired, so exhausted.
Trying not to
***SEE HEAR FEEL***
SENSE out things made me SICK that much

NONETHELESS
i have to stay
STURDY
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it's my only WAY to made myself feel GOOD
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Is it YOU or is it just ME?

*So long before i had realized that the essence of an important ONE is unmeasurable.
You've been the exact missing puzzle in the maze of my LIFE.*
Now, while writing this piece of WORDS i'm wondering and thinking
HOW "of all the people in the WORLD" did you came into my LIFE?
I'm BLESSED and THANKFUL.''
Is it YOU?
OR
is it just ME
who wants to feel this way.
WELL, i'm pretty sure ALMIGHTY ALLAH s.w.t. have reasons
why we MET and became part of the HISTORY of each and the like.
it's YOU
the one
*WHO made me SEE the REAL
**LIFE
LOVE**
**HAPPINESS
SUCCESS**
**LUCK..
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HIS voice is seemingly the
MELODY
of a sweet ANGEL
An angel that whisper his
inner THOUGHT

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suppose that its YOU and not ME.
I miss you so MUCH
November 2, 2009
3:54 pm
no ESCAPE
as I take my breath IN and OUT
i'm LOVING you
and as I rest to my OTHER world
i'm LOVING you more
....
0147
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pinky PROMISE

♥♥♥

♥*They said we're not real in the reality of what we call LOVE. I try to fought but still they keep on reminding me - that i was wrong - that I don't deserve to be loved by YOU. Why did THEY say so? Haven't they realize every angle of this situation?
*I'll justify and let them eat their words that you are not that kind of person. You is everything, a person that rarely exist.
---->now I chose to be alone and stay at the side of corner for the whole time but seems nothing happen. Of course, doing nothing won't do anything. ;c This is the fact that is so sad to know. But HOPE stayed in me and there is only ONE thing that will not let me go ...<---
*I don't know the point why I'm still hoping and why there is a notion of wanting to stay behind. Am I fighting for a reasons? DEFINITELY YES.
*The EXISTENCE of yours showed me that LOVE and FIDELITY are to be coupled for they act as the building framework why things work. Nevertheless, FAITH to Almighty ALLAH s.w.t. is what keeps me strong. It turns me into a toughest person as of now. These words seem so simple yet entails a deep thought.
*I never meant to do those things. Can't you remember what I've said? It just happened that every time and whenever the things is in its place - devils were always around too. They were poisoned with this judgment. CATASTROPHIC THINKING .
*THEY always told me the unseen aura that YOU have but who are THEY to judge YOU? i know that I don't know you that much but I assure you one thing which I'm pretty sure that you've GOT something that makes you UNIQUE and GREAT.
*I'm a kind of person in which no one knows what's in my mind and heart. All I know is that I'm a stubborn person. On the other hand, I'm always ready to go and fight on the things which I think is RIGHT that lead me to my ending of thinking capacity. Got a witty and intelligent persona but there's a point in my life that I can't think anymore.
*I'm crying out loud now. I don't know who will I run to and where to go. In these coming years, who will I be?♥


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catastrophic thinking*

*the day is so BULLSHIT. i hate eveything. don't know what to do anymore and i'm running out of time.
--->things are getting complicated. I have to left. why does people have to left me with no choice. <---
*for the GIRL out there you know the reason that from the very first place I was wrong and I had prepared myself for that but why do you have to do THOSE things. Have you ever thought the things that will happen after doing such. Now WHY and WHERE ?
*Why I have to suffer?
*Where to go now?
*What did I do to deserve this?

I won't blame anyone with this situation but hoping against hope you and I had learned our lessons.

missing those days with HIM and HER

*unconsciously, time had passed so fast that made me unable to say the words I ALWAYS ADORE TO SAY. i LOATHE him in the very first place BUT strange as it may seems. I had loved him more than anyone in this world--his all i'm asking for. is this a right thing? don't know anymore what to do with this life without him

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*his EXISTENCE give me hope.

what DID I DO to deserve this?

*GOODBYES which is the word I hate the most. I'd rather choose to be DEAF than to hear that or even see you going. How will I face this world without you. I'm missing you so so so much. Don't know how will I put my feelings into words. Can't stand these feeling.
*Now, it feels like an empty unknown thing.

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its really HARD + indescribably + to hold on to the FEELINGS that you have always HELD

*to treat someone as ordinary when in FACT HIS very SPECIAL
*to keep CALM, though your obviously JEALOUS
*to MOVE on your own with an EMPTY and totally WOUNDED HEART ♥

*to SMILE even in deep PAIN

*to let GO of the person you dreamt FOREVER with

*to accept reality of being just FRIENDS

*and to GIVE UP everything though inside

I wanna still TRY.

you'll never know who are the people to TRUST with and you'll never know what will happen after.

i miss those DAYS that we had together. How I wish that time had STOP there. Would that thing be possible? *he wish that I'll forget HIM. HOW? the FACT that his all i'm asking in my whole life. I stay in LOVE with this person out there *Don't try to push me away.