Monday, October 12, 2009

pinky PROMISE

*They said we're not real in the reality of what we call LOVE. I try to fought but still they keep on reminding me - that i was wrong - that I don't deserve to be loved by YOU. Why did THEY say so? Haven't they realize every angle of this situation?
*I'll justify and let them eat their words that you are not that kind of person. You is everything, a person that rarely exist.
---->now I chose to be alone and stay at the side of corner for the whole time but seems nothing happen. Of course, doing nothing won't do anything. ;c This is the fact that is so sad to know. But HOPE stayed in me and there is only ONE thing that will not let me go ...<---
*I don't know the point why I'm still hoping and why there is a notion of wanting to stay behind. Am I fighting for a reasons? DEFINITELY YES.
*The EXISTENCE of yours showed me that LOVE and FIDELITY are to be coupled for they act as the building framework why things work. Nevertheless, FAITH to Almighty ALLAH s.w.t. is what keeps me strong. It turns me into a toughest person as of now. These words seem so simple yet entails a deep thought.
*I never meant to do those things. Can't you remember what I've said? It just happened that every time and whenever the things is in its place - devils were always around too. They were poisoned with this judgment. CATASTROPHIC THINKING .
*THEY always told me the unseen aura that YOU have but who are THEY to judge YOU? i know that I don't know you that much but I assure you one thing which I'm pretty sure that you've GOT something that makes you UNIQUE and GREAT.
*I'm a kind of person in which no one knows what's in my mind and heart. All I know is that I'm a stubborn person. On the other hand, I'm always ready to go and fight on the things which I think is RIGHT that lead me to my ending of thinking capacity. Got a witty and intelligent persona but there's a point in my life that I can't think anymore.
*I'm crying out loud now. I don't know who will I run to and where to go. In these coming years, who will I be?


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Sunday, October 11, 2009

catastrophic thinking*

*the day is so BULLSHIT. i hate eveything. don't know what to do anymore and i'm running out of time.
--->things are getting complicated. I have to left. why does people have to left me with no choice. <---
*for the GIRL out there you know the reason that from the very first place I was wrong and I had prepared myself for that but why do you have to do THOSE things. Have you ever thought the things that will happen after doing such. Now WHY and WHERE ?
*Why I have to suffer?
*Where to go now?
*What did I do to deserve this?

I won't blame anyone with this situation but hoping against hope you and I had learned our lessons.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

missing those days with HIM and HER

*unconsciously, time had passed so fast that made me unable to say the words I ALWAYS ADORE TO SAY. i LOATHE him in the very first place BUT strange as it may seems. I had loved him more than anyone in this world--his all i'm asking for. is this a right thing? don't know anymore what to do with this life without him

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*his EXISTENCE give me hope.